The Honest Truth.

I really have not gotten my groove back – after everything. It will take months before we are really settled in the house, and my mood swings are fast it scares me. One time Im so happy and assured and calm the next thing I knew Im getting nervous and depressed and close to panicking. I guess you can say Im a little bit depressed. I have not been able to fully digest my resignation when we needed to move to the suburbs, on top of that is the need for Edil to still work in the city. I have to give it to him, he has been working very hard and driving long hours for the house move to go smoothly. I wish we can get some extra moolah to be able to afford some massage therapy for the both of us soon.

Anyhow, this is the first night Edil is not sleeping at the house and iba pala sya. I pride myself for being independent and not needy when it comes to relationships but this one really almost did me in. I thought having Edil away during weeknights would be beneficial for me as Ill have more me time and be able to live independently – read: sarili kong diskarte. Iba din pala.

That is why marriages involve two persons, not one.
We are giving this situation a year to work itself out then we will explore other options.